Turn

Where are you right now?
Are you standing right where you have been for days, weeks, years?
Just walking towards the same direction, in plain view of
 your faults,
                    your addictions,
                                            your vices,
                                                             your sin.

Well if repentance is what your after,
you really gotta rethink your position.
Repentance isn't an appology,
it isn't giving into your guilt,
or just asking for forgiveness.

Repentance is more
its acknowledging you messed up,
and then turning around a complete 180
and getting as far away as possible from where you were before.
See its that last part.
the 180.
that I didn't do.
Ive done the 90, ive done the 45, ive even done the 360 and infact didn't move at all.
But it has to be 180,
it has to be completely behind you and you have to walk away with out looking back.

 God   <------ X-------> Sin

Because Sin is in one direction, and God is in another
and you can't walk towards both,
If you don't give your back to Sin,
you are giving your back to God
and even if you try and walk towards God while you are facing sin,
You  will be walking backwards,
and will stumble and fall because you can't for see what may stand in your way.

So which way are you facing right now?
For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do. Galatians 5:17

Found

Are you done yet?
Done taking things into your own hands?
Done looking yourself, for something only I know where to find?
All you've done is search through clutter,
trying again and again what has already been discard, deemed wrong
but yet you pick it up and hope that the third times the charm.
Well its not.
You can waist your time all you want searching,
but you'll never find it because you don't even know what it looks like.
I'm standing right here, waiting,
waiting for you to give up the search,
waiting for you to throw in the towel.
It pains me to see you so troubled, helpless, pathetically searching
to no end to try and find what I've got right here.
Are you not tired?
Are you not weary,
well come here, let me comfort you
let me hold you close and show you what it is I've had all along.

Because my dear, you can't find whats already been found,
what I've had here,
all along
kept here,
just for you. 

For my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me, the fountain of living waters, and hewed out cisterns for themselves, broken cisterns that can hold no water. Jeremiah 2:13

Wasn't me

I remember the song " Wasn't me " by Shaggy  was quite a hit when I was younger, still makes its appearances at Karaoke every now and then. But unlike the song, this post isn't about shifting blame, In fact I think humans are very good at saying "wasn't me" when it comes to most situations where there's blame to be placed, Classic example, Adam points his finger at Eve, Eve points her finger at the serpent, but do you ever stop to think what would have happened if eating the fruit ended positively? Like what if God came out and said "Adam, congratulations you ate the fruit and you win! " You think for a second Adam would have stopped and said."Well, actually it wasn't me it all Eve". Ya right. See, us humans are so quick to shift the blame but just as quick when it comes to taking the credit. I was reading this passage the other day and it was rather strange actually, Basically its a story of this man named Gideon who is leading an army, and God just keeps telling him to do these random tests,( things like the way a soldier drinks his water,) to decide who to send home and who to keep in battle. Gideon starts off with thirty-two thousand men, and after all the tests, ends up with three hundred, that's less then 10% of his starting amount. And you wonder why anyone would want to go into battle severely outnumbered, but God tells Gideon, I want Israel to know that I saved them, that the victory was by my power alone and no one else. ( The Lord said to Gideon, “You have too many men. I cannot deliver Midian into their hands, or Israel would boast against me, ‘My own strength has saved me.’ Judges 7:2)  And honestly, sometimes I feel like God puts me in these situations, ones where the odds are so completely against me that I know for sure, with out a doubt that it "wasn't me" but was all him. 
Sometimes we need to check ourselves, and just like Israel did,  and make sure that we're not too arrogant  to think we can accomplish victory on our own.
Because truthfully, any victory in my life, "wasn't me" and I need to start acknowledging that more and more each day. 
For we are mere humans who need to learn that,  just as quickly as we  say  "wasn't me" when it comes to blame, is the same speed we need to learn to say "wasn't me", it's all Him, when it comes to credit.
Not to us O Lord, not to us, but to your name be the glory, because of your love and faithfulness
Psalm 115:1

The Art of Being Still

Sometimes being still is the hardest thing to do...

To be patient, to wait, to breath, stand motionlessly. In a world where if we want something, we go get it, it is hard to accept that sometimes we can’t do anything but wait. It’s this feeling of being helpless that terrifies us, it makes us feel stranded and not in control. I always feel this way while I’m in a waiting room in a hospital, wishing there was more I can do to help, but there isn’t. All I can do is wait and trust. Sometimes being still feels impossible as everything around you is sweeping past.  But in those moments where I try to take things into my own hands rather than being still and trusting, I find I end up going in circles, ending up further behind than where I started to begin with.  So I am urging myself, to be still, to let it be, to trust rather than do, because I am tired of taking my own detours rather than waiting on directions.
 Being still isn’t sitting, uncomfortably grasped by your anxiety, restraining yourself from reacting. Being Still is releasing your worry, trusting completely and resting, right where you are and knowing that you’re in good hands. 
I'll paint a picture of true stillness : A child wandering off from his dad in a store, getting into some trouble as he knocks over a display or knocks something off a shelf. In a panic the child tries to take things into his own hands, tries to apologize to the clerk,  trying to clean up the mess, tries to fix what he's done. But the moment his dad appears from around the corner, the child drops what he was holding, gets up and no longer involves himself. Right there he's filled with peace and reassurance.  In that moment, he knows there's no need to do anymore because, Dad's got it from here.

Be still, and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10 ( NIV)